Monday, July 16, 2012

Why I'm Happy We Had Boys First

This post has been swirling around in my head for quite awhile, I hope it come out the way I mean for it to.


When I found out we were having two boys I was ecstatically happy and secretly relieved. I've come to realize that I was not quite ready for a girl, yet.

A little girl looks up to her mommy. She learns how to do her makeup from her mommy, how to deal with her first heartbreak, how to be a mother, and eventually a grandmother. I'm not ready for that kind of pressure.

Because of this, I want to be in the best shape mentally, physically, and emotionally. 

I've come to realize that all too often my response to B is, "Wait 'til I get in shape, then ....." or "I feel so much prettier tan." I know this is unhealthy and I know that I do not entirely believe these statements. For having twins, I look pretty good. I'm in decent shape, but I want to be in better shape. For myself and for my family. Not only physically but mentally and emotionally too.

Emotionally, I feel like I'm in a pretty good place. Physically, is a work in progress, but I'm doing something about it and that's what matters. Mentally, I'm pretty good and stable, the biggest thing I need to do is cut negative statements about myself out of my vocabulary. I don't go around bashing myself, but I would like to feel more comfortable in this "new" body of mine and not make negative statements at all.

I don't want to pass my bad habits on to my little girl.

I feel like Boyfriend has all the pressure on him right now because they already look up to him so much. He will teach them about mechanical stuff because I know nothing. He will teach them about sports because I've never been good at them. He will teach them about being a man and respecting women, yourself and others. They will learn valuable lessons from me, but they will undoubtedly learn a lot from him just as a little girl will learn a ton from me when we have one. And because of that, I'm happy we had boys first

Plus, they're just so cute, how can you not enjoy them and love on them?!?


4 comments:

  1. You look banging for having twins and everyone one in WA needs a tan ;) I think you're a great mama, and if you had a daughter, it would come naturally!

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  2. I concur, you look amazing for having had twins!!

    I'm the opposite--I have a four-year-old girl, so the idea of having little boys scares the daylights out of me! I can deal with girls--temper tantrums, costume changes, princess movies, glittery crafts...I know that stuff. What I don't know is how to play monster trucks, or play fighting, or how to get through to little boys that guns aren't toys! Kudos to you for tackling two boys at once, the thought of that alone makes me break out in stress hives!

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  3. Good for you...knowing you need to work on getting those nagative comments the boot!!!! You are so lovely and gorgeous and sincere. I just simply adore so much about you.

    p.s. I wish I could have blog post ideas swirling around in my head!!! lol. I am at a loss...

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  4. I love this post. I have a daughter and I am so glad that I do but I love your honesty!

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