Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
Today IS special. It's the last day of a year that has turned out completely different than I imagined. I fell in love with somebody I never thought I'd have the chance to date. I got my dream job. After being a two-job gal for a loooong time, I quit the job I hated only to realize that although I'm happier, not struggling financially is almost worth the headache. I've lost people I've loved. I had the time of my life over the summer. I (finally) quit biting my nails. I've started to heal and get over all my "shit." It's a long process but like everything else, I will get through it. I've been reminded of how strong and independent I am - time and time again. I became friends with an ex. I gained a lot of weight.....and started working out again. I realized I have a huge heart. I'll do whatever it takes. I give until I have nothing left. I met a new cousin. I cut a lot of toxic people out of my life. I moved again. But I have an awesome roomate. I've learned to lean on people I never thought I would. I learned to love - unconditionally. I grew up. I quit worrying about what my family thinks. I learned to just be me, love me or leave me. I became the crazy lady who wants nothing more than to hug her dog when she's upset. I learned it's okay to cry, it doesn't mean you're weak, it means you feel. I started blogging and became to depend on it as a release. I was reminded how much I love writing. I learned to put my relationship first. I learned to really connect.
This year has been full of a ton of ups and downs (can you tell?) but I have grown so much and learned so much about myself as a person so here's to 2009, I'm glad it's finally over and let's make 2010 the best yet! I'm going to a fabulous party tonight (okay, my job puts it on, of course I think it's fab) but I'm really excited, I'll let you know how it goes.